No More Counting

A few months ago, I entered the MD-PhD program in UP Manila having doubts if I can and asking if I should. I remembered writing, "Starting today, I'll begin counting from one to eight". I was so ecstatic and grateful. I began writing the things I should do, accomplish, and achieve by the end of the eighth year. My heart was filled with enthusiasm. But I guess at that time, I had no idea of the things that will come - expectations, disappointments, failures. Things got harder each day. Then one day, maybe out of sorrow, I said, "I guess I should stop counting years, nor months, nor days. It doesn't make things easier. It doesn't lighten the load." Remembering that day, I realized, I should not have started counting the years. 

Counting the remaining years does help in tracking everything about the program but if it is one of the major reasons why I'll be pressured and forget the real purpose why I'm here, then I guess I should stop. It won't matter anyway. What will matter are the things that we do during those years and not the days when we remembered counting the years that's left.